youre not online oday, it was aroundthis time yesterday where we had fun,i crapped atoilet bowl of blood today, i dont wanna die without you here love

its a waste, you had to go so soon, iasked if you if you prefered a surprise or a hint that ull get somehitng , becasue i wanted to give you this blog.anyway my love, i hope we can have sometime together , maybe lunch or anythign, i wanted to ask you if i could do the libary thing with you, like accompany you, but you quit your job so no more :/

today when i woke up at 6.50 i just wanted to let in some sunlight and just watch you till you wake up, i dreampt that i saw you in skool, and you were taller than keith.at the forum of my skool,(ite, where theres a huge fountain) there was a huge poster of you in thongs and in short black hair.that time you seemed to know me but chose to ignore me?but surprisingly, i was the same size as chuin sin(: i wonder if youve grown, i really wanna see you,not just in pictures, but in real live.but im not sure about your reaction, so i htought ill better not ask, in csae youll get angry, and it might spoil, our so thought friendship?now ure watching your snow white show, i wish i could watch it with you.

i have to admit, jealousy was never that strong, when justin got to spend time with you, shit, i thought you two had some troubles, but i really dont know,then along came the pictures in your blog the one with you on a boat i think a sentosa?anyay i think these are the thoughts of the day, and my mind is getting weaker, sweetdreams momolove

one great day

verillyn my love.today is an important day for me, becasue of so much.were using the same fonts, georgia, just like what im typing now, its means alot to me, it feels like you love me.i ll remember this feeling, its indescribable, ill put it up here

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

veril!

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

are you rewally veri?

verillyn says:

it's me!!!!

verillyn says:

u ask jeannette

verillyn says:

haha

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yeha

verillyn says:

its me veri

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

wow

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

i cant believe it

verillyn says:

cos its way past my bedtime & im still online?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

eyah

verillyn says:

but i quit my job so i can stay up.

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

why?!

verillyn says:

cos im starting school soon

verillyn says:

2 weeks later

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

oh yeah so soon

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

but you wont be disturning your parents if you stay up?

verillyn says:

nah, im using my sis' pc. in my room now. & i just watched this really sad movie & i just cried like crazy so i cant sleep.lol

verillyn says:

dont you have school tmr?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

holdiays

verillyn says:

fuck, cool stuff huh!

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

nah

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

ill prefer skool

verillyn says:

serious?!

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

insomnia and boredom at homes not good

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yeah

verillyn says:

but crowds drive my crazy sometimes. so home's good.

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yeah

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

you still go to libry daily?

verillyn says:

library??

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

whoa your fonts are sexy

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yeah

verillyn says:

oh. nah i dont anymore. sexy fonts? haha. of course, when used by verillyn.

verillyn says:

LOL

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

(:

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

i like it when ure condifent

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

shit somethings wrong wtih my fingers cant typer normally

verillyn says:

condifent. hahaaha like condiments in the porridge. maybe ure freezing

verillyn says:

i cant type properly too cos its cold

verillyn says:

cant find the fucken comforter

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

you mean controller?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

what are condiments?

verillyn says:

no, the comforter. you know the really fluffy kind of blankets? like those stuff you put in porridge.

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

oh

verillyn says:

theres another way to use i but i only know about it being in porridge.lol

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

nah i dont know about porride

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

seldom eat them unless my mum was feeding me in pri skool

verillyn says:

cute. i still make people feed me if im lazy

verillyn says:

like im handicapped or sth

verillyn says:

haha

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

(:

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

what are the 2 words in fromt of your name?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

ping ping?

verillyn says:

momo

verillyn says:

its not in chinese

verillyn says:

hiragana, to be specific. haha. but not like you would care

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

nah

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

not like i woul know

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

anyway im caring already, but it looks too blur can make it out

verillyn says:

k

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

is there a k mart in singapore?

verillyn says:

not that i know of. but there are tons in aust haha

verillyn says:

and the us i suppose.

verillyn says:

US*

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

oh ho h o.shit theres something i need to ask you urgently

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

but i just forgot

verillyn says:

?! anti-climax, you.

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

anti-climax?

verillyn says:

like when you say sth that alerts a person then say sth else that kills the anticipation. haha

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

whoa

verillyn says:

whoa?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

wait, im still trying to understand that

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

ok i got it

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yeah

verillyn says:

that took an hour.

verillyn says:

LOL

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

i dont know, this morning i sat up knowing i had something to ask you

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

but i forgot

verillyn says:

haha nvm ask again when u rmb im not dying yet

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yewha

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

wow

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

skool ended 8mins ago

verillyn says:

in the wee hours of the morning? you gotta be kidding

verillyn says:

lol

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

i mean if converted to afternoon

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

veri which do you prefer, a surprise or something to keep you anticipating/

verillyn says:

a surprise? anyway can you password an lj?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

you mean like lock it for friends only?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

ok

verillyn says:

or no friends

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

hah?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

whatdyou mean

verillyn says:

as in just for the writer himself to view only without even friends viewing it

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

i think can

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

should be?

verillyn says:

k

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

i eman you lock it, so you yourself can see it?

verillyn says:

uh huh

verillyn says:

so theres no way other people can see it right

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

(: shit i want your fonts

verillyn says:

its georgia

verillyn says:

change la

verillyn says:

then yours would be sexy too haha

Making a Video Call to verillyn ...

Hang up (Alt+Q)

We couldn't find a webcam. Make sure that your webcam is plugged in. If you don't have a webcam, go here to buy one.

verillyn says:

wrong button

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

ooops wrong buttomn

verillyn says:

lol

You have canceled the Video Call.

verillyn says:

haha!

verillyn says:

that was about the same time.

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

which is the font button?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

but im never really quick in typing

verillyn says:

5th from left?

verillyn says:

im using windows live messenger

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

hello verillyn

verillyn says:

haha. nice.

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

gee

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

nice

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

(:

verillyn says:

is geraldine in ur sch?

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

yeah

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

but different course

bodhisattva ﺶ says:

whoa i feel like verillyn

verillyn says:

so do you both still talk like in sec sch?

i feel like you ﺶ says:

seldom

i feel like you ﺶ says:

harldy see her

verillyn says:

oh. wat about your other friends from gm. still talking to them?

i feel like you ﺶ says:

not so

i feel like you ﺶ says:

shit the fonts are really nice

verillyn says:

why? its just a font anyway. like any other

i feel like you ﺶ says:

no no no this is prestigious

i feel like you ﺶ says:

its holy

i feel like you ﺶ says:

look its so nice

verillyn says:

thats why i chose it. lol

verillyn says:

but why is it holy? you see things i dont

i feel like you ﺶ says:

thats casue i got the inner eye

verillyn says:

damn my sight. lol

i feel like you ﺶ says:

mayben ot

verillyn says:

are you bored?

i feel like you ﺶ says:

yeha

verillyn says:

yay lets play.

i feel like you ﺶ says:

ok

verillyn says:

(:

i feel like you ﺶ says:

have you been exercisomg

i feel like you ﺶ says:

exercisogsdlmfsa

i feel like you ﺶ says:

dovmo[afrdver

i feel like you ﺶ says:

see

i feel like you ﺶ says:

sers

i feel like you ﺶ says:

exercisign?

i feel like you ﺶ says:

fuck

verillyn says:

hahahahaha

i feel like you ﺶ says:

exercising

verillyn says:

nah

verillyn says:

but i might be swimming tmr if i aint lazy

i feel like you ﺶ says:

whoa

i feel like you ﺶ says:

so if you swim can i walk beside you and hold an umbrella?

verillyn says:

haha too bad that job's taken

i feel like you ﺶ says:

wha!bye who?

verillyn says:

my lover. ahahaha. anyway imma watch tv now. no one else' online........................... bye jasper

verillyn says:

kavjnlkjhpih;JNALKJBUEIFHKJnLKJANLJKNjksdblc

verillyn says:

haha

i feel like you ﺶ says:

oh

i feel like you ﺶ says:

ok

i feel like you ﺶ says:

sweetdreams

i feel like you ﺶ says:

msg me if you have time ok?

veril, i diddnt msg you today, i miss you truckloaads, but that was what you said, you love me truckloads, in one of your post cards, im moving soon, but not far enough, you can still find me, i read them, they are memories, great ones, i hope true ones too. ill keep them safe with me, i wont be moving much with me, mainly just clothes, a pencil case of important things and maybe hadly anything else?, oh yeah my guitars, and drums. see when i think about you, i forget lots of things too,i love you ok? today, i sat in the same seat of the car, and had the same feeling, as the day , you told me you cant keep your promises and that you wont message me anymore, well im sure happy that till today, you would still msg me, my love, and i hope you will when ure in aus too, i wish you could still console me and tell me that aus is still al ong way more,but im aching for you <3>

you brightened my day lots today, thanks for dropping a comment (: if im not wrong justin comes back tomrow? ok i wish you sweetdreams from my heart,love

today, is a long day, today my love is still here, and today i searched your name on google, cool stuff, i saw links of your name to just jayne linette fellicia and even your friendster profile, somehow i feel bad doing this, is like in a situation when i have no idea where you are, in singapore or not, maybe you think im still crazy that ill even search your name on google, maybe, but really ivegot nothing better to do, i want to have luch with you, but i dont think ull agree :/ i dont even know what im getting at, fuck, i mean like ,why will you have lunch with justin but not me, but nvm ,maybe becasue ure just real close friends?verillyn i misss you real deep, i dont care, youre my love

verillyn-nyllirev

its amazing how afternoon changes to night, and how your love left so quick when you said ull love me forever,sometimes uyou dont even give me the chance to say bye, let alone wait.i wish there were times, where i eake up from a nightmare, knowing youre beside me and everyhtings fine, i open my eyes but i cant see anything,like tousen. i cant feel your love, for so long all i can is taste salty tears and cold feet.now i know its no more about wheather you believe that i love you, but now its that you dont love me anymore, i miss you your love , your hugs your feeling, and everything about you, its like, we are so far apart now.maybe by the time you read this ure in aus, but that so long more, but i fucking love you.<3>

you would type a letter for a friend going to aus,if i were going would you?you said you would for a close friend,but you said we aarent even close

but i love you

yesterday was talking to geraldine,even before i got to know you,i felt you were quite proud,and snobbish,not because im jealous,but ithink its really true,she said like when you were in netball,you were like a know it all,im not sure how she put it,but i hope you can be friendlier,even your sister is friendlier,you would rather watch a video then to send a msg to me?i wait for days for you to reply?or is it because it not important/you thought you replied/or ure busy?even you dont reply tags and testimonials,maybe its just me,but i love you still

yay.great sleep in months.the aircon was amazing today.the bath too.and its the first time i got so much spam,i took around two hours to bathe today,one the cd ended i played songs from my phone then itried shampoo and conditioner over and over again until my skin was wrinkled,what i nice day :)

:(

:( you didnt reply my goodnight msg today,it means so much to me but nvm,maybe you really wont ever love me like we used to.woke up in the morning enjoying my sad feelings,im gratefull for it because i still love you,you will start work in a few hours,hope you have fun baby.i cant find you on my msn list,i tried adding you again,but they just said ure already added,i feel so lousy in everything i do,i wish you would give me everything,i helped gwen with a call,its good to helpp others,but i still cant help myself,or like candice says have i done everything?i collected all ur pics today,its an accomplishment.i feel so angry after dinner,mum just keeps talking and talking,jasmine and pops too,but no matter what they say,i just wont bother to reply,even though its rude i just dont feel like i can speak,what do need me to do,to love me?you want to drink my heart juice,damn,its frustrating,its sad,its laughable,its fucked.my mum says:treat people how you want to be treated,i dont see it working,or does it work only on my deathbed?i decided not to write the book for us anymore,because its all in these two blogs,my heartfelt feelings,the only part was,i only blogged twice when you were mine,i cant just let go,i just cant give up,but the most discouraging part is that youre going to aus,and you have a home there.i cant go back to fourth level everyday to cry right?kasiatun came back today,its nice to hear that shes going back home,she looks the same and her hands are as strong and moist as usual,i miss her,but when she left i didnt really mind because she talks so loudly,and messes my room up.i wonder if ull ever ask me out?or do i have to ask when ure drunk?see you in slumberland dearest <3

baby,im so proud you got ur burberry job,but why do seem so cold now?whos that special person that you seem to be waiting for so eagerly?

who the hell could that be?the person i havent seen online for days,or someone i totally know?why wont you let me visit?even if we are just friends,i dont know whats happening

<3

this morning is such a disaster.i accidentally sent this to veril.enlin.do you feel jealous even if you see a picture of someoneelse with the person you love?damn.now i dont kow if ure angry.you havent replied my last 3 msgs,please love,but please reply me first

<3

get up and listen. says:

for now i think that you should just be there for her and maybe if she needs you one day she will be able to know that there is someone there for her and thats you..so she will find you when she needs you so now i guess you just be her pillar that when she needs soemone you are there..you get what i m saying right?

i love love says:

yeah

i love love says:

i wont give up as long as i can

get up and listen. says:

yepp if you still like her dun give up maybe she will be yours someday just a matter of time.just for now be there for her whenever she needs you..like by sending her goodnight sometimes it do works..esp when she is down and she recieve her a msg from you goodnight she might just want to talk and start a conversation with you

i love love says:

unlikely

get up and listen. says:

you will nevr know..have some confidence for god sake.

i love love says:

its so hard

get up and listen. says:

sometimes you are suppose to go through some hard road before you learn to treasure that thing and not taking things for granted..so just have some confidence..maybe some things will turn out differently.

i love love says:

not bad

i love love says:

ur english is slightly better today

get up and listen. says:

haha...yesterday i wasnt in the mood too.haha..anyway you get what i m saying that can alr.

i love love says:

can

i love love says:

means i wont give up

i love love says:

veril is not mine

i love love says:

im only wishing

get up and listen. says:

but you waiting makes you feel happier then its still up to you.

get up and listen. says:

*if

i love love says:

yeah

get up and listen. says:

i ask you something.

get up and listen. says:

is waiting making you feel happy?

i love love says:

wrong

i love love says:

u should use does making make you feel happy

i love love says:

but no

i love love says:

ofcourse not

get up and listen. says:

then why do you still want to go through this?when it doesn't make you feel happy.

i love love says:

because i might be happy when i get he

i love love says:

r

get up and listen. says:

ya but you cant only think one way think..you must also think what if you dun get her and you are waiting for nothing..how would you feel?

i love love says:

bad

i love love says:

but ill try

get up and listen. says:

okay then you can wait maybe something different will happen..so yepp..maybe you will get her oneday.

i love love says:

yeah

get up and listen. says:

but i got to say is also you will be sad whe the outcome turns out differently.

i love love says:

i know that

get up and listen. says:

thats great.haha..i sound so profound.hahahha

i love love says:

profound

get up and listen. says:

haha..what ever.

i love love says:

when u getting ur pay?

get up and listen. says:

tis coming week..but it will be little..because its a few days only.

i love love says:

oh

i love love says:

i htought ulll get a few thoussand

i love love says:

then can buy me christmas pressent

get up and listen. says:

that was the pervious month.but i spent everything.hhahahaa

get up and listen. says:

and its not thousands for god sake.

get up and listen. says:

its 900 plpus

get up and listen. says:

haha

i love love says:

u work for a few days and get 900?

get up and listen. says:

no thats a month.

get up and listen. says:

now i gguess its hundred plus like that i guess

get up and listen. says:

haha

get up and listen. says:

still not bad okay

get up and listen. says:

haha

i love love says:

i know

i love love says:

i havent earned a cent this month

i love love says:

or since skool ended

get up and listen. says:

i should say since school end.

get up and listen. says:

haha

get up and listen. says:

but i m bbored now.

get up and listen. says:

haha

i love love says:

eyah]

i love love says:

i feel veri really changed sice she left skool

i love love says:

since*

get up and listen. says:

prettier.

i love love says:

not thats

i love love says:

that*

i love love says:

other things

get up and listen. says:

oh what???i want to know.

i love love says:

i wont worry if she is preetier or uglier

i love love says:

butits just the way she is she is changing too fast]

get up and listen. says:

aiyo...she likes the way she s now then you should be happy for her what

i love love says:

i cant protect her

get up and listen. says:

oh i see..but i see her pics i think she didnt really change much what.

i love love says:

not by loojks

i love love says:

looks*

i love love says:

i dont care much about looks

i love love says:

but its just her mind and heart

get up and listen. says:

okay.hahahha..

get up and listen. says:

then you tell her how you feel la.

i love love says:

no

i love love says:

i must be carefull

get up and listen. says:

yepp..just protect her if you want but do it quietly.

get up and listen. says:

aha

i love love says:

i cant

i love love says:

she wont go out with me

i love love says:

its like she dosent remember me

i love love says:

so its not possible

get up and listen. says:

really..what makes you think so?

i love love says:

nvm

i love love says:

but i know

i love love says:

im right

get up and listen. says:

okay up to you if you think you are right..just look at things in a different angle maybe you wont think like that and would also feel better.

melissa,im trying to help her,but i cant help myself

after i saw that picture

all the jealousness comes back

i cant concentrate on bleach anymore

can i even sleep?

i forgot who was talking to me about,being happy for the person you love,unfortunately i still cant get that

i cant be happy if im not

:(

damn,days seem better with bleachyou message me more too,i cant say everything here,there still might be a risk,i dreamt about you,i dreamt we went mos then you got drunk and sick,so i took you out first,the we had a goodtime talking and making out,then i called your mum,we were at a beautiful place full of flowers and we were on a bridge,soon after ur mum came,she thanked me and you gave me $60 to take a bus home,and ur mum looked like ur sister,so i took a bus home with $60.i quite forgotten about the other dream weeks ago,but it wasnt as good as this.there is no other south as strong as you are,i wont be redirected

<3>

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i hope you could msg others less and me more,maybe he was right last time,ive seen your just a friend version,im not to complain about
you,but i just wish you love me more

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if you notice this someway or another,i promised,i wont lie to you

veril<3

this zis my new blog,just testing

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